I feel like a bad Floridian.
This past Sunday was the first time I’ve been to the beach
in what seems like years. When its been so long that you can’t remember, you
may as well have never been before. We are the sum of our memories…or something
like that.
I had forgotten how truly wonderful it can be. The
interesting thing, though, is that my body remembered it all.
Its as though this was a well rehearsed scene. I started by taking
off my shoes. Adjusted my gait as the sturdy planks of the boardwalk disappeared
and turned to earth and glass. Feeling the sand, warm from the sun, as it
conformed to the shape of my feet. Without even realizing that I made a
decision, my shirt slid over my head and was tossed over to keep my shoes
company. The sun felt so nice on my long since exposed shoulders. The sand hardened
and became cool. The water that held the sand in place backed away with each
step…it always made me feel like I had some kind of super power watching the
sand change color under my weight.
At long last, I reached the water.
With each tiny wave, I was reminded of something: I was born
to this. As much as I cherish my connection with the earth, half of me is a
child of the ocean.
Native Floridians are hybrid creatures. We are born on land
and surrounded on all but one side by the sea. The cold water licking at my
feet urged me to remember.
When I was younger, I would play this game with Poseidon. I
would call out to the god of the sea and tell him to do his worst. Send his
waves at me! For hours I would fight the ocean with fists, feet, body slams,
shells, and balls of wet sand. Basically anything at my disposal was fair play.
If I ever said anything too harsh, I was reminded that I was in fact playing
around with a god. Waves can slam you down pretty hard onto shell beds, let me
tell you.
Tough love.
I never was able to outlast him. When my young body reached
its limits and exhaustion inevitably set in, the waves would still be coming
strong. As a reminder of who was really in charge, he would always send one
last wave to throw off my balance just before I reached the shore. Such a
joker.
On some level, though, I felt that I was respected. Here I
was, only one tiny half breed among millions…but I stood up to him. I gave him
everything I had, and I felt recognized for it.
This past Sunday, I remembered everything.
Then I got that feeling. That rush of being with an old
playmate and rival. Seeing a friend you haven’t seen in years. Standing knee
deep in the surf, I could feel myself readying for battle. It was invigorating.
He pulled gently at my feet as if asking me to come in
further. And then I heard it. A familiar voice spoke from the depths of my
mind.
“I remember you, child. Are you ready? Have you come back
for more?”
Unless you were right next to me, you probably would not
have been able to see the smirk in the corner of my mouth. How else could he
expect me to respond?
You bet your ass I’m ready, old man. Game on.
Oh, how I wish I had the same comforting mojo with the beach.... But when you're forced to play in water in which you almost drowned as a kid, water that's always associated with horrible sunburn, and water that near-killed your father and as a result changed the tenor of your family's life forever, it's not that easy. I envy your (and most people's) love of the beach. I've made an uncomfortable peace with Poseidon, but we'll never be BFF's....
ReplyDeleteI absolutely love you brother. We were meant to meet. I used to do this too, no joke. I was scream my head off and run kicking into the water throwing myself against the waves.
ReplyDeleteI used to find magic everywhere, but now I don't. I believe its out there its just harder for me to see. I saw it everywhere in while I was in London, but that would only make sense if you were allowed to walk around in a dream while you were awake. What's more magical than that? But this just reminded to open my eyes again to the wonderful, the miraculous and the divine. Thank you for delivering you magical Monday message :-) Sorry I didn't get it until Friday but hey! Better a teeny bit late than never :-)